Jaded. dark love songs

by be steadwell

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05:23

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released January 6, 2016

Assistance from Asha Santee

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Be Steadwell Washington, D.C.

Be is a queer pop artist specializing in vocal layering. In addition to her solo endeavors, B is a singer MC in queer pop group The Lost Bois. Her music is simple yet infectious, and always sincere.

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Track Name: haunted
do you feel that knot
in your tried heart
did you hear that sound
coming from the dark
there are spirits here
there are sacred words
you should run from her
she will only hurt you

baby when you coming to bed?
she said
i said. i don't know
something tells me this is an end
i'll stay. she'll go.

maybe i keep my ghosts like company
maybe i keep my ghosts like memory
maybe you know I'll never do right
maybe my past will always haunt me

baby when you coming to bed?
she said.
i don't know.
......
i am not the girl you asked for
i am less. i am more
i am not the girl you wanted
i am blessed. but i am haunted.
......
baby when you gonna come home
it's been
too long
i've been facing all of my fears
but you. you're
not here

maybe you wish you could forget me
maybe you wish you never met me
maybe i'll only bring you sorrow
maybe you should have up and left me

baby when you gonna come home
it's been
too long

i am not the girl you asked for
i am less. i am more
i am not the girl you wanted
i am blessed. but i am haunted.
......

It's in the air
We're not alone
This bed is built
Hallowed ground
The bones of lovers
come before

They're never gone

they will never go

i am not the girl you asked for
i am less. i am more
i am not the girl you wanted
i am blessed. but i am haunted.

maybe you wish you could forget me
maybe you wish you never met me
maybe i only bring you sorrow
maybe you should have up left me

there are spirits here
there are sacred words
you should run from her
she will only hurt you
Track Name: hold me
hold me
hold me
hold me

I am breathless
weightless in her arms
nothing felt so much like home
yet i'm restless
the parts that i can't trust
reckless urge to stay alone

she said
hold me
when you start to loose control
when you feel like letting go
baby don't.

no one ever could control me
least of all myself
tangled up in consequence
i remember when she told me
she would be the one
spoken with all confidence


she said hold me
that's all i need you to do
break the skin if you have to
i can take the pain
for you

she said hold me

hold me
till you feel it-you can shout
hold me
if you feel it-ride it out
hold me
you can push me-i don't care
hold me
i'm not going anywhere
i'm not going anywhere

she said
Track Name: netflix
it's love. maybe you should text her?
this love abbreviated the letter
look down and type until my neck hurts
romance is retro as a record
retro as a record...

we get in bed with a DEvice
we fall asleep by the screen light
sex is elusive on a good night
netflix is fucking up my sex life

fucking up my sex life
fucking up my sex life
fucking up my sex life
fucking up my sex life

i want to buy the girl a necklace
i want to make the girl some breakfast
i want to sell a million records
i want make the girl breathless

real life. can't nobody hear me.
real life. the girls don't really feel me.
online my picture is so pretty
online i'm better than the real me.
better than the real me...

better than the real me...better than the real me...better than the real me...better than the real me...

pick me
type me
click me
like me
brand me
buy me
i'll be yours

Let's take
a picture of the good times
let's take a picture in the good light
let's make it look like a good night
let's make it look like a good life


we get in bed with a DEvice
we fall asleep by the screen light
sex is elusive on a good night
netflix is fucking with my sex life
Track Name: sorry
.................................................


hand to my heart
heart my soul
i don't wish to cast a shadow

hand to my heart
heart to my soul
i wish i could steal your sorrow

hand to my heart
heart to my soul
i don't want to feel this anymore
anymore

coffee
bitter as regret
table cream and honey
dull the taste of death

autumn in the window
winter on the wind
whispers of a memory
the color of your sins

should i say i'm sorry
or write another song?
should i say i'm sorry
for all that i've done wrong
but what good is sorry?
love has come and gone
the chance has come and gone

hand to my heart
heart my soul
i don't wish to cast a shadow

hand to my heart
heart to my soul
i wish i could steal your sorrow

hand to my heart
heart to my soul
i don't want to feel this anymore
anymore

move on
make another friend
drink another sunrise
smile into the lens

measure out a distance
count and close your eyes
but nothing feels like ready
nothing feels like right

should i say i'm sorry
write another song?
should i say i'm sorry
for all that i've done wrong
but what good is sorry
love has come and gone
the chance has come and gone

hand to my heart
heart my soul
i don't wish to cast a shadow

hand to my heart
heart to my soul
i wish i could steal your sorrow

hand to my heart
heart to my soul
i don't want to be this anymore
anymore

i'm sorry.
ooh babygirl i'm sorry
for all that i've done wrong
will it make you happy?
will sorry make me strong?
will sorry make you strong?

should i say i'm sorry
write another song?
should i say i'm sorry
for all that i've done wrong
but what good is sorry
when love has come and gone
the chance has come and gone

you know i'm so sorry
write another song
Track Name: anything for you (remix)
i should never feel so lonely
when i lie next to you
i should never wake
and feel for the air
but some days i do

so i'm rising from the bed
thoughts are screaming in my head tell me
now is the time to run
when i get to the door
i am falling to the floor
in my weakness i come undone

love is not a word
it's something that I do
and baby everyday i'm deeper with you
and you'll never doubt
that what i say is true cuz
no matter how it hurts
if you ask me to.

i'd do anything for you
i no longer have a say
and no matter how i try
it's too late to walk away

give her the world
tell her you'll stay
build sandcastles till the tide has changed-now
let the girl go
take out the trash
i try not to read you by the chapters of your past

but you were right
i am weak
i am fragile as a leaf
just one breath and i could blow away
i wish i could express
all the power you possess
but your love is not
in what you say

love is not a word
it's something that you do
and baby everyday i'm deeper into you
and you'll never doubt
that what i say is true cuz
no matter how it hurts
if you ask me to.

i'd do anything for you
i no longer have a say
and no matter how i try
it's too late to walk away

i'd do anything for you
i'll do anything it takes
i will walk the darkest road
if it ends in your embrace
Track Name: the one
You already know
I am insecure
Could never believe that
I could be the one. look at
all the girls around you.
You say that you won't
Look at what they got and
Look at what I don't

You look like a god
Sitting on your thrown
You compose a thunder
Beating on your drums
she say baby can't you see it
you could be the one
Baby you can have me
Everything you want
everything you want

you are the one
why won't you be it
you are the one
why can't you see it?
you are the one
why can't you feel it
why can't you feel it?

fuckin up my posture
always trying to fold
trying to be smaller
be invisible
don't wanna be the center
dead and burning star
i wanna be the flower
watching from the wall

sit up on a stage
look out at the crowd
some are sitting quiet
some are talking loud
all i see is me
falling to the ground
all i see is demons
try to tear me down
tryn to tear me down

you are the one
why won't you be it?
you are the one
why can't you see it?
you are the one
why can't you feel it
why can't you feel it
why can't you feel it?

i have been a goddess
in the mirror's gaze
i have been a beggar
starving for your praise

Stare into a darkness
deep and black as coal
call to the orisha
heal this broken soul.

you already know
i am insecure
i could never believe that
i could be the one
say it myself
hear the words from you
praying for the moment
i know it is true

you are the one
why can't you be it
you are the one
why can't you see it
you are the one
why can't you feel it?
why can't you feel it
why can't you feel it?

I am the one
when will i know it?
i am the one
why can't i show it?
i am the one when will i own it?
when will i own it
when will i own it?
Track Name: jaded
too happy to be blue
too new to be so old
too blessed to be so broken
hot to be so cold
you too young to be so jaded
you too young to be so jaded


how you wake up tired
how you wake up wishing for the dark
water on a fire
waking up should never be this hard

ashes on the counter
empty glasses
echoes of the night
wishing for excuses
tell yourself it's really the last time

you too happy to be blue
you too new to be so old
you too blessed to be so broken
too hot to be so cold
you too young to be so jaded
you too young to be so jaded

body of a goddess
wake up with woman of your life
portait of perfection
still you find a reason you should fight

body in the sunlight
hoping maybe she will give you some
rushing through the romance
all you really want to do is come

you too happy to be blue
you too new to be so old
you too blessed to be so broken
too hot to be so cold
you too young to be so jaded
you too young to be so jaded

spirit
spirit
let me live i
know not of the
gifts you give
lover lover
please don't go
i'll be better than before
sad song
melody
you have made a mess of me
one day
you'll look back
wonder why you were so sad

you too happy to be blue
you too new to be so old
you too blessed to be so broken
too hot to be so cold
you too young to be so jaded
you too young to be so jaded

you too happy to be blue
you too new to be so old
you too blessed to be so broken
too hot to be so cold
you too young to be so jaded
you too young to be so jaded