Breakup Songs

by Be Steadwell

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released April 28, 2017

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Be Steadwell Washington, D.C.

Be is a queer pop artist specializing in vocal layering. In addition to her solo endeavors, B is a singer MC in queer pop group The Lost Bois. Her music is simple yet infectious, and always sincere.

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Track Name: stand alone
stand alone

feel the rush
of wind and sound
close your eyes
don't look down

falling from the sky
love's what makes us call this falling
flight

i have sinned
and i have lied
but i have never left your side
you let me go. you let me go.

this is me
without you
i have nothing left to do
but stand alone. i stand alone.

hear the thunder from the door
somedays life
feels like war
feel the shelter of your arms
the foolish hope
I'm safe from harm

i have sinned
and i have lied
but i have never left your side
you let me go. you let me go.
this is me
without you
i have nothing left to do
but stand alone. i stand alone.

sweet whispers of a prayer
still i know. you won't be there.
feel the rush
of wind and sound
hold my own
stand my ground

i have sinned
and i have lied
but i have never left your side
you let me go. you let me go.
this is me
without you
i have nothing left to do
but stand alone. i stand alone.

this is me
without you
i have nothing left to do
but stand alone. i stand alone.
Track Name: precarious place
precarious place

let the world fall down around me
i am too blind to see
i am too numb to feel anything while she's gone

walk around like this isn't real
like this is all a bad dream
and i'll wake up in the morning in her arms

hmm.
a precarious place to be, you
know very well that she be
somewhere smiling
somewhere laughing
happy finally, be

grown up me says to me
this isn't fantasy
this isn't make believe.

see either she wants you
or she don't
either she'll try to
or she won't
just look around you
she is gone.
she still. gone.

let the clouds descend upon me
i am too dumb to see
i am too numb to feel
lightening strike me down

maybe i should color my hair
or find a nice thing to wear
and it would make her want
to love me now

hmm. a precarious place to be, be
you know very well that she be
somewhere fucking someone
whoz much prettier than me

grown up me says to me
this is not a bad dream
this is all very real

cuz either she wants you
or she don't
either she'll try to
or she won't
just look around you
she is gone.
she still. gone.


precarious place to be, be
precarious place to be, be
somewhere fucking someone
whoz much prettier than me, be

precarious place to be, be
precarious place to be, be
somewhere fucking someone
she can trust much more than me, be.

you want her to want you
but she don't
you want her try to
but she won't just look around you

she is gone.
she is gone.
Track Name: deleted you
deleted you

i'm so done.
so done.
i deleted you from my phone
my phone
my phone
i deleted you from my

she reconnected with a "friend" in texas
so i downloaded an app
to keep my ass off exes
and faked my own death
got all machiavelli
then i trolled her on the internet
a gem in my belly

this girl takes too much energy, memory
haunts me like a ghost on my facebook feed, insta G
said she wants to take some space to be, space from me?
player, please
why still be vibrating my galaxy?

i'm so done.
so done.
i deleted you from my phone
my phone
my phone
i deleted you from my

She brooke-brooke- broke up with me
three weeks from the date
then she told me to have "patience"
but she just couldn't wait

then i called, and i called
and she just wasn't there
she was playing in her bed
like a musical chair

she wasn't there when i needed her
she didn't care when i needed her
now she is pleading,
leaving messages for me at the beep
but i don't bother to listen
i just press delete cuz

cuz when i hear her voice
i just fall apart
but god damn it
i still know her whole number by heart
Track Name: she said your name
She said your name

i'm afraid of your room
i'm afraid of these walls
they will know i'm a fool
still i know i will fall

in the dirt of your sheets
in the ditch of your eyes
wanna soak them in bleach
wanna set them on fire

cry myself to sleep
calling out your name
wishing you could hear me
from a thousand miles away

screaming like a siren
but your spirit couldn't hear
someone else was all up in your ear

she said your name
lies in your bed
pulls on your hair
push down your head
nothing will ever be the same
she said your name. she said your name.

i'm afraid of your shit
sittin' still on my shelf.
i'm afraid of my hands.
i'm afraid of myself.

i'm afraid of your eyes
looking at me that way.
i'm afraid i'm a fool
when i beg you to stay.

cry myself to sleep
calling out your name
wishing you could hear me
from a thousand miles away

screaming like a siren
but your spirit couldn't hear
someone else was all up in your ear

she said your name
lies in your bed
pulls on your hair
push down your head
nothing will ever be the same
she said your name. she said your name.
Track Name: done
done


i don't have the energy today
to smile like im going to be ok
i don't the energy no more
to turn shit into pretty metaphors

i don't know what i'm going to do
now that i've seen this side of you
i'm just here frozen and confused
trying to tell myself it isn't true

this isn't real
this couldn't be
you'd never do
that to me

what have you done?
what have you done?
what have you done?

i haven't left the room in days
i have lost the will to pray
i have lost the will to write
i have lost the will to stay

all of the girls that you ran to
they took away a piece of you
they took away a peace of me
still try to tell myself it isn't true

it isn't real
this couldn't be
you'd never do
that to me
what have you done?
what have you done?
what have you done?

i saw you in the horizon
your eyes on mine
your hand in mine
your father and mother smiling
as i take your hand in mine at the altar
i saw our daughters
run to the front door
hold them in your arms in my arms
i saw our garden overgrown with okra
our hearts overwhelmed with hope
i felt myself holding you through tears
heard our music blooming from the earth like sunrise
i saw you in the horizon
your eyes on mine
your hand in mine
and just like that
i am alone
you are gone.
it is done.

what have you done?
what have you done?
what have you done?
Track Name: running
running


got a ticket to the west coast.
got myself a one way flight
gonna touch down in oakland
think of staying and i just might
if i don't come back love
if that's what i do
i want you to know
i'm running, running from you

every time i go out now
people ask me if i'm ok
big city yet a small town
news travels fast that way
so i don't go out now
don't have much to do
and everyone knows
that i'm running, running
from you

i wake up breathless
as if in my dreams i've been
running, running, running for miles
i wake up helpless
cuz no matter where i go
you're always by my side

i will never forgive myself
for pushing you away
when i needed you closer
needed you to stay
maybe it's all my fault
all things i do
maybe i've always
been running running from you

i wake up breathless
as if in my dreams i've been
running, running, running for miles
i wake up helpless
cuz no matter where i go
you're always by my side

got a ticket to the west coast.
got myself a one way flight
gonna touch down in oakland
think of staying and i just might
if i don't come back love
if that's what i do
i want you to know
i'm running, running from you
Track Name: i dare you
I dare you

she is 30 going on 9 skipping running wild
Mary-go-round on the playground
acting like a child
making play dates
brand new play mates sittin' in a tree
spinning round we all fall down
go home with bloody knees

i dare you
i double dare you.
go find somebody new
go find somebody new
i dare you
i double dare you.
go find somebody new
go find somebody new

careless as a child
all you do is play
i have grown too old
for this kind of game
selfish as a child
every single day
i would be a child to stay

she is 30 going on 13
cutest girl in school
she rebels, she raises hell
she's breaking all the rules
slamming doors
and screaming out
she wants to be alone
middle finger to the world
she runs away from home

i dare you
i double dare you
go find somebody new
go find somebody new
i dare you
i double dare you
go find somebody new
go find somebody new

careless as a child
all you do is play
i have growth too old
for these kinds of games
selfish as a child
every single day
i would be a child to stay

aging queers
reliving years
of adolescence
now we act like kids
but we're too old
to feign our innocence
boyish girls with pretty curls
do what they wanna do
trying on misogyny
and call it something new.

i dare you
i double dare you
go find somebody new
to play these games with you

i dare you
i double dare you
go find somebody new
go find somebody new
Track Name: new girl
NEW GIRL

yesterday i met a new girl
a take away a bit of blue girl
looked at me like who are you girl
she got a smile like ooh girl ooh girl
said there something that you should know
tell the girl i'm just a shadow
i have nothing i am hollow
i'll go deeper than i should go

cuz you never loved me like that and
you won't fight to get me back so
i won't wait around for you girl
i, i got myself a new

oh yea she's smarter than you
flyer, and she's taller
and she's nicer than you
better kisser. better baller
and i thought that i should wait
but i just couldn't wait to call her back
and listen to her laughter
tomorrow, the days after that
when you left it got so ugly
Now with her, i feel so lucky
she don't wanna run around like you
all she wanna do is fuck me

now you never loved me like that and
you won't fight to get me back so
i won't wait around for you girl
i, i got myself a new

all i wanted was you
you didn't want me
i got a new

i am ready
i deserve her
i am ready
i am worth her
i am ready i won't hurt her
like you hurt me

now i'm too busy to chase you
now i'm strong enough to face you
it was difficult to let go but
it was easy to replace you
I been talking to a new girl
she ain't nothing like you girl
you been talking to a few girls so-
what you wanted me to do girl?
do girl.

cuz you never loved me like that and
you won't fight to get me back so
i won't wait around for you girl
i, i got myself a new girl.

cuz you never loved me like that and
you won't fight to get me back so
i won't wait around for you girl
i, i got myself a new
Track Name: leo
leo

cat bitches
blue fish and liquorice-ez
slow kisses love so delicous-is-ez
yo misses sweet salt nutritious sheaza
-king and kitten cute fuzzy malicious

step away from the mirror lil kitten step away!
is it me or did i rock this eyeliner today?
is it me or did i get a lil finer today? forget a critic
go on a get it
you know you bae

she's a leo
look, look there shego
not tryn' to fuck with me tho
me tho
go 'head and feed that ego

proud mamma. sassy as a lil llama.
head trauma-nasty as a prima donna
so why you wanna snuggle on her pajama? hmm?
why you still wanna audition for the drama? hmm?

wave and wiggle, dance ya noncommital jig
heart be little, taste like purple skittles kid
tree hugger indiscriminate lover true
love blood sucker.
you vampiric motherfucker.

ever since the day of your glorious birth
you been god's gift to this green, green earth
you selfish.
you lazy.
you warm, you artistic.
you loyal, stubborn....
narcissistic

leo
not another leo...
not tryn' to fuck with me tho
go and feed that ego

she's a leo
look look there shego
not tryn' to fuck with me tho
go and feed that ego

she got prince charm. sword and medallion
she got fool's gold that rusty rapscallion
hips n puddin how she sway that shit
gold honey and liquor.
now flambe that shit.

step away from the mirror lil kitten step away!
is it you or did you get a little cuter today?
is it you or did you grow a fatter booty today?
go on and rub it
go on and love it-
you know you bae

ever since the day of your glorious birth
you been god's gift to the universe
you selfish.
you lazy.
you warm, you artistic.
you loyal, stubborn,
massocistic

leo
not another leo...
not tryn' to fuck with me tho
go and feed that ego

she's a leo
look look there shego
not tryn' to fuck with me tho
go and feed that ego
Track Name: run in the rain
run in the rain

fairy tales
not to scale
good guys win
villains fail

hollywood
tastes so good
love so sweet
love that could

sweet refrain let the church bells ring
final frame
cue the strings
when our hero fills the screen
someone start the rain machine

and she runs in the rain in the rain away
run in the rain in the rain away
in the rain in the rain away from you

she's gonna run in the rain in the rain away
in the rain in the rain away from
run in the rain in the rain away from you

glowing light
felt so right
charming prince
shining knight
people take
armor breaks
charming prince makes mistakes

sweet refrain let the church bells ring
final frames
cue the strings
she looks around there is no one else
now the hero saves herself

and she runs in the rain in the rain away
in the rain in the rain away from
in the rain in the rain away from you
oh

she's gonna run in the rain in the rain away from
run in the rain in the rain away from
run in the rain in the rain away from you
oh

hey

time winds down
wait for you at
double doors
you wont burst through
perfect love
perfect girl
nothing like
the real world

sweet refrain let the church bells ring
final frames (as we)
cue the strings
swelling chords of a melody
i will run from you to me

i'll run in the rain in the rain away
run in the rain in the rain away
run in the rain in the rain away from you
oh

I'm gonna run in the rain in the rain away from
i n the rain in the rain away from
run in the rain in the rain away from you
oh

I'm gonna run in the rain
run in the rain
run in the rain
run in the rain
run in the rain
run in the rain

away from you
Track Name: sage (witch two)
Sage/witch two

i lit a sage when you walked in
cuz i have no idea where you've been
what kind of energy you conjuring
what kind of spells you be casting

i lit a sage

fellow witches
whose noses got twitches
dip fingertips in lavender and black lip kisses
we are drawn to each other to
the power, the passion but
beware what awaits you through
the laws of attraction

there was magic in her lies, hips, kiss, her sex
needed a priestess to perform an exorcism of my ex
if there's one thing i lived through these hexes to tell-
you should know, powerful women cast dangerous spells

i lit a sage when you walked in
cuz i have no idea where you've been
what kind of energy you conjuring
what kind of spells you be casting

fellow witches, bad mystical bitches
beware of the chicks too big for they britches
i am one of three sisters and my sister don't play
we be dancing, we be dabbling in condoblme
hey. patronus charm, go get your harry potter on
i don't need a girlfriend, i got myself a magic wand
cuz you and the universe been throwing me shade
every time you come around the planets retrograde.

i lit a sage when you walked in
cuz i have no idea where you've been
what kind of energy you conjuring
what kind of spells you be casting
Track Name: wake up alone
wake up alone


there are some days
it hurts to wake up
there are some days
it hurts to feel love
there are some days
it's better to wake
wake up alone

I miss her hands
I miss her lips
and no one kiss me like she kiss
and no one holds me like she do
but no one made me feel this blue
nights i wish and days i pray
but maybe I should find my way
alone

she knows the song that
my heart beats
she knows my words and melody
she knew me like no one before
but i don't know her anymore
she's so cold when she's with me
i feel like i would rather be
alone

i wished for how we used to be
in morning light she'd smile at me
thought I had nothing left to fear
and the world could start and end right here
i used to wish she needed me
now I just wish that she'd leave me
alone.